Monday, July 1, 2013

Cuckold Comentary : The Five Inch Myth

So we've all heard the stat and wanted to believe it- the average penis length is five inches, right? Did it make you feel good to hear that? It probably did.

But then you started having cuckold fantasies and now everything is upside down. Maybe now you are curious as to whether your wife or girl friend could do better? How easy or hard would it be to find someone who could do the job better than you?

Maybe you are a woman not getting everything you can from life? Can you find better?

The answer of course, is yes and it wouldn't be that hard to find a better penis.

I'll show the results of two interesting studies and then tell you what they mean for small hubbies and the poor girls who have to settle for them. First, this study- The Definitive Penis Survey suggests the average penis size is actually 6.4 inches. And even worse (or better?) a study called Statistics of Human Penis Size tabulated this histogram:



In this study, the median penis length was 18 cm (7.1 inches). Both of these study suggest that the five inch thing we've all heard may have been something to help us feel better. The average length is a whole 1.5-2 inches longer!

Here is how you should think about this data:

If you have a five inch penis, you are in the lower 5th or 10th percentile of penis length depending on which study you choose. So can your girl do better? Yes. 9 out of 10 men (or 19 out of 20, depending on the study) could give your girl a better orgasm than you. Even if you have a six inch penis, more than half the men you know could fill the role of man better than you. Even if you have a seven inch penis, your girl could do better without much of search.

How many men has your girl been with before you? If you have a five inch penis, they were probably all better than you. If you have a seven, half of them were. Does she remember? Does she think about that? Can she forget?

So go ahead and fantasize. Go ahead, take the plunge, and actually invite a guy into your bedroom. The numbers say he won't disappoint. This is great news for women who are brave enough to break convention and men who are strong (and horny) enough to let them.

Thursday, March 14, 2013

Major Re-Write

Many thanks to all who gave comments and suggestions. I've taken down the first 3 chapters and started with a new Prologue and story structure that puts the story in a march sharper focus. More to come- including tantalizingly tortuous scenes of cuckold love!

Chapter 1 : The 1st Element

Three years before that fateful night- the night when Phil's gun was in Becky's murderous hands and Phil's cock was in my wife's insatiable pussy- Staci and I were ordinary newly weds searching for a house. What changed? What brought us from ordinary and wholesome to lustful and damned? It happened as I imagine an avalanche would- small seemingly insignificant pebbles of ice follow their own paths- paths set by a gravity they cannot resist. Eventually they gather momentum and more fragments. Then a thunderous ride that could either find a smooth landing or an abrupt crash. The first pebbles of ice that would lead to our cuckold avalanche started in the isolation of my head- fantasies I shared with no one. But on our Honey Moon, Staci began to join me in our tumble. And together, we found an unusual but exhilarating slope for our glides, falls, jumps, and spills- the cuckold's descent.

The core of a cuckolding relationship is made up of two basic elements- the electrons and protons of the cuckold atom. The first, is a "hot wife"- a sexually expressive, adventurous, and- most importantly- brutally honest woman whom other men crave. Honesty is extremely important. Too often women fake it- never revealing or expressing the truth. The cold, not-so-hard truth that the dick they married ins't always the right tool for the job.

Staci is our electron, the beautiful element that swirls around, attracting other atoms with which to bind and form new rare, unstable molecules.

Shall I describe Staci as I see her? I suppose I could, but that wouldn't be very cuckold of me. Let me instead describe her as another man- in this case Phil- saw her for the first time.

A few months after our Honey Moon, Staci and I were looking to buy a house. By that point, we had begun our slide down the slopes into cuckold valley, and Staci was really getting the hang of playing with hung men. We were therefor primed and ready to find Phil and Becky who happened to be selling our dream house. And who sold what to who ended up being a rather complicated question.

...

"Stand up," Phil said, rather casually, I thought, in light of the tense, awkward circumstances. And with equal nonchalance, my beautiful wife rose at his command. Was I the only one with sweaty palms here?

Perhaps not. Becky, Phil's wife, remained on the couch to my right and was breathing rapidly. Though my eyes were locked on the scene Phil and my wife were creating, I could feel the couch cushion shift from Becky's frequent squirming. It made me feel a little better to have someone else roasting on the sofa with me. Becky and I always shared some kind of bond in that way.

Staci's five-foot-four frame (she would claim five-foot-five) was ominously overshadowed by Phil's monstrous six-foot-four (he would say six-foot-five). I know writer's like to exaggerate, but, in this case, take my word; Phil is some kind of beast- tall, wide, loud, proud, and strong. My delicate flower of a wife seemed terribly vulnerable within his grasp.

Staci was wearing one of her silky red blouses which covered a conservative portion of her neck but clung nicely to her shapely figure- out at the chest, in at the waist, and out again for those regions of her body that would soon be claimed by the best. Her black skirt fell to just above her knee, and her sculpted lower legs and ankles- still tanned from our honey moon- stood barefoot on the plush carpet.

Phil's tree trunk legs were planted in front of Becky and me while Staci faced all three of us. Her normally wide, expressive brown eyes narrowed with challenging contempt as she glared at Phil.  He responded by gently brushing the bangs of her brown hair to the side of her face. His fingers then ran down, behind her ear, to where her hair finished at the base of her neck. It all seemed oddly tender until he said quietly, "If you don't like me now, just wait."

"Promises, promises," Staci said in a bored voice. This made Phil laugh. He began to pace slowly around my motionless wife. I was terrified, I was electrified, I was in agony.

"So your husband likes this kind of thing, does he?"

"He's not important now," she said. Sadly, her words couldn't have been more true. "I know what men like you like, and that's what's important now."

"Men like me?" he seemed amused. "What kind of man am I?" he asked, still circling his catch.

"Overly confident, arrogant, and self-centered," she said sweetly. Then she gave a subtle lick of her upper lip. "Oh what ever could I do to please a man like you?" she asked with supreme sarcasm.

"So let's be clear," said Phil. "I get you three times- as long as I want you up to an hour- and in exchange we sell you this house at half price. That's the deal you are offering?"

"Yes," said Staci. "It really is a wonderful house." Phil chuckled as he paced around behind her again. "When do you want me?"

"I want to see you before I make my decision," he said.

"I'm right here," she opened her arms and smiled.

"Unbutton your blouse," he commanded, no smile on his face.

"Now?" she asked, sounding unsure for the first time.

"Your husband will love it," Phil said with a slight sneer. Of course, he was right. "Those are my terms. I want to see you first."

Staci blinked her orb-like eyes in a moment of uncertainty but then rallied. With a subtle glance at me that said "it's okay", she started to unbutton her blouse. The vivid red silk started to peel open exposing a tanned neck and a pink bra. A flat stomach soon followed down to the waist of her black skirt. Her perky breasts were poured into the pink C-cups looking overfull. My trained eye could see where the erect nipples pressed hopefully against the soft fabric causing my penis to press all the more hopefully against their boxer short prison. She began to slide the blouse off her arms, but Phil abruptly caught the garment and started twisting it behind her back.

"What the fuck are you-" Staci yelled while struggling to free her arms. I made to stand up but Becky shoved me back onto the couch with surprising force. Phil suddenly had one strong hand gripping both arms behind Staci's back while his other large hand was placed over her belly. Staci squirmed but was effectively immobilized.

What did I do? I fidgeted a bit but basically just sat there- just sat there while my wife was being manhandled. I was so confused. Staci told me, during moments of candor, that she likes when a man takes control. Was this one of those times? Was Phil going too far? I never know where the line is or when the time is right for this kind of thing. But guys like Phil do- they can smell it. And for some reason, I trusted his instincts on this one.

Then Phil whispered something into Staci's ear. She stopped struggling and remained still. He whispered something else. There was a long pause, and then she gave a slight nod. Phil took his hand off my wife' s stomach and started reworking his impromptu knot behind Staci's back. It seemed the blouse was now tied to the strap of her bra, keeping both of her arms behind her, and her breasts thrust forward awkwardly but beautifully. Clearly the beast had done this before.

"What the fuck is wrong with you?" Phil asked me suddenly. That has always been the question, hasn't it?

"Ahh-" I stammered.

"A guy does this to your wife right in front of you, and you just sit there?"

"Well I-"

"He's turned on!" Becky announced triumphantly, and she patted the small tent pitched between my legs. Her touch sent shock waves through my body that disappeared all too quickly. Staci gave me a sharp scowl. I felt awful.

"I just-" but I was interrupted.

"If we are to give you people as much money as you are asking, I gotta make sure things are as I want them." said Phil in a rather business like tone. "You," and he was looking at Staci. "are offering your body, right? You are offering your body like an object. So that means I get to treat it that way."

He placed his hands on either side of Staci's bra and lowered it exposing her gorgeous dark round aureoles and large erect nipples. He set the bra so that the hard upper ridge of the garment pressed against the fleshy underside of her tits. It looked a little uncomfortable for Staci but the overall effect was pretty stunning. With her arms behind her back and the bra pressing underneath, her tits were stuck out in gravity defying beauty. The man in me wanted to lunge forward devour her fleshy grapefruits and erect nipples. But the man in me has long been chained so I sat quietly, obediently.

Phil stood behind her and let his huge hands eclipse Staci's breasts. A steady red flush took over Staci's face as Phil's hand slid slowly and gently over each breast, alternating between probing with his fingers and pressing with his palm. Eventually Phil got each nipple between a thumb and index finger and began to squeeze, Staci let out a minuscule squeal but held her ground.

My cock was raging like fifty thousand volts were pumping through it. My breath was coming in short gasps and my sweaty palms were soaking marks through the knees of my jeans. I was in utter turmoil.

"One more thing to check," said Phil. He unzipped the side of Staci's skirt. It dropped abruptly to the floor revealing pink panties that matched her bra. I felt somewhat smug about the obvious wet excitement that marked the front and underside of the fabric. And she scowled at my erection.

But feelings that didn't last. What always won in me was a feeling of relief. I suppose that is the closest emotion I can pin to it. Relief that Staci- my beautiful Staci- was getting the thrill she deserved, getting the better man she deserved. I was happy to know her pussy was burning with desire and anticipation.

"Enjoying this?" Phil asked Staci as he smiled at the visible moist.

"Are you?" she asked evasively but her face went a deeper shade of red. Phil suddenly reached up and pinched her right nipple. She squealed and tried to step back. Phil held strong, however and her breast stretched briefly to a cone-like point before she stumbled back into place. She then tried to free her hands but couldn't.

"Let go!" she yelled as Phil kept his relentless grip on her sensitive tip.

"I asked a simple and fair question. Enjoying this?" Staci squirmed for a few seconds longer before answering.

"It's... different." Phil grunted and let go.

"He likes her," Becky whispered in my ear excitedly. I had almost forgotten she was there.

Phil knelt down before the girl he apparently liked and looked at the damp panties that separated him from conquest. Once he was content he lowered them to her ankles, revealing the pussy that he would come to enjoy for the next three years.

Laser hair removal had left the pink mound smooth save for a tuft on top that was lighter than her actual hair. The vertical slit was slightly open with the warm, sweet, moisture I for some reason like to share. The tip of Staci's prominent clitoris was just visible through the folds. Staci stepped back out of her panties.

I had never seen her like this before. Her full body tan gave her skin a perfect warmth. I had always adored her breasts, but with her arms tied in that predicament and the askew bra bolstering them up, they took on a a much bolder, vulgar aura. Her face flush red with embarrassment and excitement. And her pussy was opening its symmetrical butterfly bloom right before our eyes.

Phil was on one knee watching the flower blossom. I think it was subconscious  but Staci shifted her left foot- slightly away from her right, so as to open herself just a little more- I think anticipating or hoping for touch. This made Phil smirk and he stood up.

"We have a deal if ..."

"If what?" asked Staci sounding annoyed.

"Well, I just want a kiss."

"I think you've had enough fun," said Staci.

"Okay then," said Phil. "Thanks for stopping by." His tone seemed to say "No deal".

"Okay, okay!" said Staci. "Come here."

"Come here." Staci groaned and rolled her eyes but stomped forward, her arms still tied in red behind her back. Phil, being much taller, did not lower his head. Staci had to stand on tip-toe and press her full body against him to get the necessary height.

And then their lips met. Whether to ensure the deal or because she wanted to, Staci kissed him deeply and passionately. Phil placed his fingers softly on her chin while their mouths explored each other. When Staci finally stepped back, Phil's fingers softly traced down her neck, into her cleavage, and then abruptly away.

"Talk to Becky about the dates and details," Phil said as he turned and left the room in awkward silence.

...

And now you have met Staci, the electron in our cuckold atom, eternally bound to me, yet attracting and binding to other atoms to create many different- and occasionally explosive- reactions.

Friday, March 8, 2013

Porn Review : Cuckold Sessions - Paris Kennedy

In addition to the "A Cux Tale" novel I am sharing with you all, I realized I could share something else that may be of interest to cuckold freaks like me. I have spent A LOT of time watching cuckold-themed porn. So, I thought I would share with you my thoughts on what I've enjoyed, what I didn't, and what I want to see from the industry.

My first review will be Paris Kennedy's scene from the Cuckold Sessions series.

When I first started exploring cuckold porn, I was surprised to find so much material on this fetish (I thought I was just unusually weird but apparently I am a weirdo with a lot of company). But I was also very disappointed at the quality of the cuckold porn. The acting was horrible. Yes, this is an obvious failing with most porn but if you are going to act out a cuckolding scene between a husband and wife, there's going to be some need of acting involved.

That's when I found this gem of a scene. The first cuckold scene that kept me in the game and kept me looking for more goodies ina  sea of trash. It happens to be an interracial scene, and I've already made my thoughts known on that fetish within a fetish.

The "plot" is that it is hubby's birthday so his wife is going to fuck a bull for him. Right away I love that it is all being done for the husband's pleasure rather than a forced, femdom situation. I personally  like scenes where the husband is openly into it and openly participates in his own humiliation. The husband in question is an accountant (of course!) and the bull is a college football player (of course!). They really don't work too hard on these scripts do they? How about a hubby who is a "Fortune Cookie Writer" and a bull who is "Golf Ball Diver" (yes that is a real job. Someone has to fetch those errant shots out of the water). I will give them some credit for claiming the football player is studying french. For some reason, this stick s out as the most unbelievable part of this whole scene. But I think it must be a little inside joke since the actress's name is "Paris".

In case you were wonder, "cuckold" in french is "mari trompé". So the scene opens with them finding this guy and inviting him back to their place.



She begins the session by caressing and fondling her new toy while her husband diminishes to the sideline. I like the way she feels up the bulls arms, legs, and chest- noting how strong he is (and how strong her husband isn't). Then she talks about how she likes that he hurts other men on the football field- again something her husband couldn't do. This kind of talk awakens the primal, primitive attraction in our species where a woman would obviously choose the more physically fit male to one suited for accounting.

Then she undresses for her new lover.


I like the way the bull acts with her- with occasional spanks to her ass and tits as she offers herself to him. Her mari trompé doesn't give her that kind of action, and she is clearly enjoying the change of pace.

One comment about these reviews. After careful thought, I have decided to refrain from posting actual pornographic images from commercially available porn. I just don't know the rules or where the line is. I tried using google to look up rules on reposting porn images, but when you google anything with the word "porn" in it, all you get is porn. Besides Paris Kennedy is a fine, hot actress and if you like how she looks in the pics above, you should go purchase a legal copy and support her fine talent.

Back to the action.

Paris pulls out the bull's big penis (or as they say in Paris, pénis) and she comments about how she feels like it's "her" birthday rather than her hubbies. I like how they keep this little birthday gag going throughout the scene.

After all this undressing, the hubby pulls out his petit pénis, and Paris handles them both while compares them. This is something often done in Cuckold Sessions' scenes, and it is a fun contribution to cuckold porn. Paris grips the bulls cock tightly in a fist with her left hand and holds the hubby's cock lightly in her right hand with just two fingers. The bull (or "taureau" in french) is getting great, satisfying strokes while the hubby is being casually flicked and teased. It's got to drive him crazy with sweet torment! All the while his penis is being verbally taunted by his loving wife. At one point she comments how the bull isn't even completely hard yet and he is already so much bigger than her husband's cock! What a great insult. The husband's cock is at full attention, roaring with blood and urning for action, and it still doesn't measure up to the lazy bull. Paris looks at the little cock and says "Awwww," and touches the tip with her index finger like it was cute poodle. "But you have fun". And that's the beauty of cuckold porn, right? The hubby's erection does seem like good evidence that he is enjoying himself, but is he? I vote yes, but it's a good question.

She then counts how many fist-lengths she can wrap around each cock from base to tip. The bull gets a score of 3 while her husband barely gets one. After giving a careful look at both cocks she says casually, "I think I'll play with this one." And she begins sucking the taureau's cock while leaving hubby dangling in the open air.

Paris's cock sucking is a thing of beauty in this scene. She really works hard at it, getting sweaty and breathless in the process. She drools visible gobs of spit onto the giant member and takes moments to sit back, catch her breath, and worship the giant cock with a wide-eyed smile. This is an A+ blow job made even better by glimpses of the husband standing erect and unnoticed in the background.At one point she lays the cock on her face with her mouth at his balls to show that the shaft runs the length of her head.

She breaks away for a moment to give her husband a long and deep kiss. Then she goes back to sucking cock- and dirtying her mouth- before giving him yet another kiss.




And finally the build up is over. The jock lays back and Paris- while saying she's scared of the cock's size- opens her legs to lower onto his scary cock in a slightly askew cowgirl position. The cuckold picks a low spot with a perfect view of Paris's pussy- which is now under attack.

"I wish you could fuck like this," Paris manages to say to her husband between moans of ecstasy. "You are really stretching me out," she says to her lover. After a few moments where Paris is the picture of a frustrated wife finally getting a good fuck, she says "I'm going to be so sore but it will be so worth it."

Then he pulls out and we get a good close up of the already stretched out pussy. Her lips are wet and open and we can see the dark depths of her pink vagina are plenty bigger than pencil her hubby is playing with. There is no way he could fuck her now.

Paris is nice enough at this point to go over and wiggle hubby's dick with two gentle fingers. Then she turns away,. That's all hubby gets before she returns to the big cock.

Paris lays on her hands and knees and football playing, french student enters her from behind. Paris, who has such a pleasant sounding moan when she is fucked, seems to have her first real orgasm here. The bull gives her a few quick spanks which prompts her to say to her husband, "I like him. He's dominant".

"I'm glad," her husband says lamely. Frankly his acting ability starts running out of gas at this point. Everything he says starts to have that forced winy quality of cuckold husbands in these kinds of scenes. But his cock is being teased so much without release, I'll cut him some slack here.

Then Paris puts her legs tight together and the bull gets to fuck a visibly wet and tight snatch. Finally, he pulls out and Paris gets to worship his cock with her mouth some more.

Here are some shots of her face as she is being taken from behind and the kiss she gives her husband right after tasting her cum on his cock.


Not done yet! She climbs right back on the large member in a nice reverse cowgirl position, giving us a great view of her stuffed pussy and bouncing tits. She seems to have even more intense orgasms in this position saying "It hurts but I love it! I can't stop." And then she says the cliche line that makes this an official BBC fetish scene, "I love big black cock." Though I have to admit, cliche or not, by this point Paris's performance has been convincing. I think she really does love grand coq noir.

The bull starts thrusting upward at a furious pace now causing Paris to wail with what seems to be mostly pleasure. Her husband says at one point, "You've never cum like that before" and she says "No this is..." but she is so lost in the experience she can't finish the sentence. Maybe she is even forgetting her husband is in the room.


Finally, she hops off to suck the cock clean. Again she tastes her cum and- finally remembering her husband- gives him a nice soft kiss with her dirty lips and tongue. But her hand doesn't leave the bull's cock while hubby gets this tender affection. "I came so hard all over his cock," she says just after the kiss. Then she puts her mouth and tongue back on the aforementioned cock.

Her husband, who has been very patient, then gets treated to another round of cock comparison. Paris first checks to see that the bull is still 3 fist lengths while her husband is still just one. Her tone of voice is perfect. When she is facing the bull she has the demeanor of a hungry, horny woman. When she looks at her husbands cock she takes the tone of someone who sees a child doing something cute with many "Awws" and giggles. This kind of humiliation is somehow so much worse than when it done in a cruel tone. To be patronized rather than ridiculed is much emasculating.

Paris's tone might be loving and tender but underneath she manages to be as cruel as ever. As she is holding both cocks she says to her husband, "I think you're the size of his (cock's) head." It does seem true. The bull's penis tip might indeed be as big as the husband's entire penis!

As hubby has to digest this insult, Paris gives more satisfying slurping sucks on the bull's cock. Then she sits back to give him some nice long strokes. This part of the scene is exquisite as Paris slides her hand all the way from the base of the giant cock to the tip and back down again- all the while keeping two gentle fingers on her husband's cock. The bull gets full strokes while the husband gets flimsy little jerks. At one point she looks at his little cock and says with a giggle "Are you hard? I can't tell." And then she turns to the bull with adoration and says "I'll bet you never have that problem."

She mounts the cock once more in a cowgirl position and has a loud climax where sweat is visibly breaking on her forehead. The bull tells her to "Look at your husband while you're fuckin' my dick." As he rams her, she leans forward so she is breathing on his face while she moans and loses control saying, "He is hitting that spot you can't reach." She then reaches out and places her thumb and index finger on her husband's cock. The lucky husband is treated to a half hearted jerk off while the bull is stretching Paris's pussy with big, long fuck strokes. Paris, of course, releases her husband before he can cum.

She then turns around to face the bull and let him suck on her titties while she has yet ANOTHER orgasm. "Again?" her husband wines plaintively and it is clear he has started to be alarmed and disturbed by the number of orgasms his wife is having. Hey buddy, I thought you were an accountant.

And now for the finale (another french word for our student). Paris lays on her back against her husband. The bull first goes down and licks up her soaking wet pussy. She says here, "He even licks pussy better than you, honey."


After saying this she reaches her hand back and for a second you think she might grab her husband's itty bitty dick. After all it is his birthday, right? No. Her hand passes an inch over the top of his dick and she touches his chest instead. If only he was a little bigger.

Then the bull starts fucking her again. Now the hubby can actually feel her being rammed against him. And while the bull is building toward his orgasm, they do the lame birth control conversation bit that is all to common in cuckold porn. You know the one, right?

"Honey," the husband says. "You've taken your birth control this month right?"

"Oh, no!" says the wife. "I guess you're going to have to eat me out so I don't get pregnant!"

Lame. And it's in almost every one of these scenes. But oh well.

Then the bull has a satisfying, exploding orgasm in Paris's tight (for him) pussy. He pulls out slowly, so her wide open pussy is first visible and then a healthy gob of semen dribbles out.

"It's time for your birthday cake," she says to hubby.

He lowers his tongue onto the annihilated pussy filled with plenty of cum from his wife and another guy. He takes his time cleaning it up before backing up for air. Paris works her wounded pussy with her finger and another healthy spoonful of white cum slides out onto her lower pussy lips. Hubby's tongue comes back for more. Though his own balls are probably aching to release, he ingests more. He experiences all aspects of sex- the sounds, the smells, and the tastes-but is denied the main goal.

Paris looks completely satisfied as her husband's gentle tongue slides over her sore pussy. The viewer is left with the question: What do these people do for Paris's birthday?

Rating
I'll give this scene a 10 out of 10. As cuckold porn goes, it is one of the best we are going to get. Paris is perfect at being both the girl next door and a dirty, horny sex toy. The way she teases her husband throughout really elevates this scene. This should be an instructional video for hotwives everywhere.

Wednesday, March 6, 2013

Cuckold Commentary : Why So Much Interracial?

I just need to throw this out there. There is a wonderful and growing collection of cuckold porn, cuckold stories, and cuckold culture. Great! But when did this fetish (or whatever we call it) get so married to interracial porn? For example, all of these cuckold porn series:

1. Mom's Cuckold
2. Cuckold Sessions
3. Evil Cuckold

And so many more (including most of the armature stuff) all feature "Big Black Cock" with little white husbands.

Now I don't mind it, necessarily. It doesn't affect my enjoyment of the scene one way or another. It would be like every time you bought a slice of pizza, they gave you ginger ale with it whether you asked for it or not. Ginger ale is okay and thirst quenching, but why ALL THE TIME.

Mix it up out there in porn land!

Also, I wonder about all the poor black men with a cuckold fetish. Where's the porn for them? They have to constantly watch porn where 100% of their ethnic group is bull mete rial. Just once I'd like to see a black husband cuckolded by a white software engineer. Just once porn makers! I dare you.

Prologue

"Becky!" I shouted, "STOP!"

Becky's blond hair snapped forward and back as my voice halted her advance in mid stride. Then her hair gracefully swirled as she turned on the spot to face me. Before I could think, she had Phil's revolver aimed at my chest. She broke into a toothy, snarling smile when she saw my shotgun pointed at her chest.

"You should have shot me in the back, Pussy," she said with sorrow in her voice. "I wish you did." I could tell she was in one of her drunken moods. I was all too familiar with this beast. Becky could be a quite sensitive, compassionate soul. But I would not be talking to Becky tonight. Instead the raging, ruthless animal that hatches from whiskey bottles was the thing holding the gun.

"I won't let you kill Staci," I said.





"And I won't let you kill Phil," she replied with a darkening of her eyes. Despite her severe inebriation, she held the revolver quite steady with two hands. A warm breeze breathed on the night causing a lazy rustle of leaves in the trees and an occasional flutter of my loose fitting T-shirt. The thought of its thin fabric being all that separated me from one of Phil's bullets was chilling. "Though, maybe I should let you kill Phil. He deserves it,” she added. We were standing in Phil and Becky's driveway on a moonless night. The spotlight over the garage splashed the scene with yellow glare and elongated shadows that contorted Becky’s normally voluptuous frame into a demonic specter. Summer moths circled noiselessly over our heads.

"So you were going to do it tonight?" I asked. My brain was spinning its wheels. I didn't know what to do. I didn't know what to say or how to defuse this.

"Kill your wife?" she said. "You pussy. Say what you mean. Yes, I am going to kill Staci- just like you hoped to kill Phil tonight."

"I don't know what I-"

"PUSSY!" she half screeched, half whispered. "You should kill Phil! You should want to kill Phil! You should want to blast his beautiful cock right off his body!" She took a deep breath to try and calm the mad frenzy within. "You should have killed him three years ago! What the fuck is wrong with you?"

We stood in silence for some time after this- weapons still aimed. She had asked the question- THE question. The one I have asked myself continually for three years now. What the fuck is wrong with me?

Finally I spoke. "You know better than most what is wrong with me," I said feeling hurt in spite of everything. "I thought you at least understood a little about me."

She sighed and a droop in her shoulders told me she was relaxing by degrees. I hoped she was sobering up too. The revolver stayed level, however, and I knew she was a good shot. "I suppose I do. You are just wired that way. But it has gone too far. I am going to end it. I am going to end because you are too much of a fucking pussy."

"We did this to ourselves," I said. "You and me. We are the ones who-" I may have had more to say. I may have been able to talk sense into her but at that moment we were interrupted by all too familiar sounds drifting down from the second story bedroom window above us. The sounds that have dazzled and haunted my waking and dreaming life for three years. Phil and Stacy were fucking... again. Like Pavlov's dogs, we stood for a while in a  trance of conditioned erotic stimulation. It had been three years of this... whatever it was.




"Are you turned on even now, Pussy?" Becky taunted. "Would it turn you on even more if I shot your cock off while Phil fucks Staci's perfect little body? Would it? You cuckold freak," she said derisively.

"You like watching Phil with other girls, don't you? You get off when-"

"It has gone too far!" and the mad snarl returned to her face, the raging animal once again unleashed. "It's more than just physical between them now and you know it! This Caribbean yacht trip... it's ... it's ..." Tears from her vivid blue eyes interrupted her anger and she took her left hand off the revolver to wipe her face. Her right hand still held steady with the gun so I dared not move. When did I dare do anything really?

"Maybe it should end like this," she whispered in flat, even tones that ratcheted up my fear even more. "Maybe you and I should leave them… together."

"What do you mean?" I asked, though I thought I knew.

"I couldn't do it myself," she said. "I've tried! I'll bet you have tried too. Have you thought about killing yourself?"

"Sometimes," I said honestly. "But that isn't-"

"But if we do it together... we could ... kill each other, right?" There was a mad hope in her voice. "I shoot you... and you shoot me."

"What!"

"We could kill each other and … leave these two fuck birds in peace." She was sounding calmer now. I didn't like it.

"We can work it out," I said. "We can make this work."


"Huh! That's what you always say , isn't it? We can 'make things work'. Your wife starts fucking around to fulfill your weirdo cuckold fantasies and you say 'we can make this work.'' You don't really believe that anymore, do you?" she said. "That's why you were going to try and kill Phil. You were going to try, weren't you?"

I didn't answer. I just sighed.

"Pussy!" she snarled. Staci's pleasure suddenly jumped to a new level, and her moans pierced the night. Having watched Phil and Staci fuck for three years now, I could see it happening in my mind's eye. I was sure he just flipped her over and started fucking her from behind.

"He's taking her from behind now," Becky said clinically with a twitch of her head toward the window. "He's probably standing next to the bed and she's probably-"

"she's bent over with her head on the bed and her ass up," I finished. In spite of everything, we both laughed. For a wild moment, I had hope that reason would prevail on Becky's whiskey soaked brain.

“What a pathetic pair we are,” Becky sighed. I wanted to hug her but the drawn weapons trumped simple humanity.

We stared at each for several moans and shrieks from above. Finally I said, "I still love her," and my voice broke. "Please don't kill her. It’s my fault she got mixed up in all this."

Becky was silent for some time as we listened to one of Staci's never ending orgasms. "I will kill her," she said coldly. "I promise you, Daniel. On this night, I will put a bullet in the back of that home-wrecking slut's head."

"Hey now!"

"I am going to count to three," she said. "Okay, Pussy? I will count to three and then we will both fire."

"Come on, Becky-"

"If you don't pull the trigger," she said. "I'll just kill you AND your cunt wife. Got it, Wimp?"

"No," I was crying. "Please!"

"You want to save her life, right? Then on three, pull the damn trigger, okay Cuckold? Shoot something into a woman for a change." She gave a harsh laugh.

"I won't shoot!" I said.


"You have to," she said. "Don't you see? We are damned, you and me! We tried to get pleasure in ways you just aren't supposed to- unnatural pleasure. We got burned. This is how it has to happen. You and me, Daniel. We were meant for each other in some fucked up way."

"No..."

"Daniel?" she asked and her tone was suddenly soft. "Do you remember that night, by the pool?"

"Of course," I said hopeful that this new tangent would help disarm the situation. “Last summer.”

"That was our night, our special little moment. It was just you and me and it was... nice," she said. "I liked it."

"Umm, thank you," I said. "I liked it too. Do you want to maybe go sit by the pool with me and we can-"

"ONE!"

"Becky, NO!" I yelled. "Let's talk about this! We can make ti work!"

"TWO!"

"I need to see her again! I need to see Staci again! Don't you need to see Phil? Don't you-"

"THREE!"